peace
Peace …
Face your giants. What is it that keeps you up at night that presses on your Heart robbing you of Peace? God searches our Hearts at night and surfaces things that need to be dealt with. Is it fear? anxiety? guilt? I had a friend ask me if at night I ever had a thought come in that instantly made me feel sick, sweat and worry. I said, “Years ago I did but not any more. Now I lie my head down at night and have Peace.” I learned that often what kept me up was mistakes I had made and was still making. One by one I dealt with each of them. First I had to believe that God forgave me when I cried out devastated at what I had done. I then had to learn to forgive myself. I began to receive Peace but it wasn’t yet complete. My Heart continued to remind me of those things until I faced the giant. I had to deal with it and I didn’t want to. It would hurt those I cared about. It made me sick to my stomach thinking about the mistakes I had made. I was ashamed. Couldn’t I just keep this between God and me? I wrestled with God on this one for awhile but my Heart was speaking loudly (shouting actually) in order to have Peace I had to deal with this. I no longer wanted to look over my shoulder afraid of the dust balls coming to life that I kept trying to sweep under the rug. It was clear, not only did I have to forever change my ways but I had to face this if I wanted full Peace. It was one of the hardest things in my journey but my Heart was relentless. God reminded me He was by my side and would go before me but I had to listen to what He was speaking in my Heart. I had to do things His way. It was time to change my ways and right what I had done wrong even at the risk of losing everything. I had to own up to my mistakes and make amends. I had to make things right to the best of my ability. I had to confess to those I hurt. I had to face my giants. God gave me the strength to do it and when I didn’t know if I had the strength He said, “Let those without sin throw the first stone.” When God is for you, who can be against you? He became my strength and was that rock in my hand that I threw to take down the giant. It wasn’t easy but I did it and it freed me of what was holding me in bondage for too long.
I knew to keep this Peace He had now given me that I could not go back into the life I had left. And if I wandered off path, He would make me go thru these same steps again (just like any other loving Father would do). The thought of having to go thru those steps again (facing God and others with what I did wrong) gave me the strength to walk the straight path forever. God was holding me accountable and that is what that Heart conviction is all about. He taught me through this not only just how deep His Love is even when we completely mess up but that the only way for me to have Peace was to walk in His ways. I had to Live it. I truly had to Live what I believed and it changed my Life forever.
I want to encourage you to face your giants. Let God be the rock in your hand and watch the Giants fall.
Many Blessings to you, with MUCH Love!!! :)
Ammie
Peace, Joy and Love …
My Heart has been overflowing with abundant Peace, Joy and Love. It is amazing. I’ve never experienced this high of a level before; it’s as if I’m flying. It comes from inside and took me many years on my journey to realize the difference between external peace, joy and love and everlasting Peace, Joy and Love that resides within the Heart. I have done just about everything you could imagine to obtain it externally.
I would seek love only to discover the Love I desired would seek me.
I would seek validation from the world only to discover God was the only one who could validate me.
I would seek an intimate human touch to feel complete only to discover God’s touch of Divine Love brings contentment.
On this journey, I have traveled much, made wrong turns, and was given the wrong directions over and over again. I endured much, suffered much, gave up much but learned the Truth of giving up life to obtain Life. The life I had picked for myself was based on external wants, desires and drive but true Life could only be found when I had enough Faith, Hope and Love to fully release it all … to let go and Let God allowing Him to tear down, rip away all that wasn’t mine to begin with so He could bring me what was mine from the beginning.
I had to have Hope when the world told me there was no hope.
I had to walk forward blindly in Faith so He could give me eyes to see.
I had to give Him my heart before He could give me His.
Never stop Hoping.
Never stop Believing.
Never stop Loving.
Many Blessings to you, with MUCH Love!!! :)
Ammie
RIP Dust Balls …
You’ve made some mistakes, what you do with those mistakes is what builds character.
We walk our journey to learn and along that journey mistakes are made (on both sides of the table – meaning some times we make mistakes, some times others). These mistakes are used to teach us. How we handle them is critical to our spiritual growth. If we focus on the mistake (whether it is by us or someone else) then suddenly we are frozen and not able to move forward. Mistakes are not meant to halt your spiritual growth but to excel you forward. Stop looking at the mistakes! If you’ve made a mistake then make it right, do not try to brush it under the rug thinking it will go away because that dust will rise. What I mean is the dust doesn’t stay under that rug, instead it turns into a dust ball you’ve given life to because now it bounces out (always seemingly at a time of joy) to remind you that you didn’t deal with it. Pretty soon you see it so much you end up naming the thing. Let the dust be dust and the only way to do that is to deal with it – don’t let it rob your peace any more! Deal with those mistakes … from your Heart set out to make it right, ask forgiveness (both of the person(s) it impacted and God), and then learn from it by making up your mind that you are not going to do it again asking God for help. It’s time to clean out the cobwebs and sweep out the dust. A Life of Peace is planned for you.
Many Blessings to you, with MUCH Love!!! :)
Ammie