Lost My Way
Peace …
Face your giants. What is it that keeps you up at night that presses on your Heart robbing you of Peace? God searches our Hearts at night and surfaces things that need to be dealt with. Is it fear? anxiety? guilt? I had a friend ask me if at night I ever had a thought come in that instantly made me feel sick, sweat and worry. I said, “Years ago I did but not any more. Now I lie my head down at night and have Peace.” I learned that often what kept me up was mistakes I had made and was still making. One by one I dealt with each of them. First I had to believe that God forgave me when I cried out devastated at what I had done. I then had to learn to forgive myself. I began to receive Peace but it wasn’t yet complete. My Heart continued to remind me of those things until I faced the giant. I had to deal with it and I didn’t want to. It would hurt those I cared about. It made me sick to my stomach thinking about the mistakes I had made. I was ashamed. Couldn’t I just keep this between God and me? I wrestled with God on this one for awhile but my Heart was speaking loudly (shouting actually) in order to have Peace I had to deal with this. I no longer wanted to look over my shoulder afraid of the dust balls coming to life that I kept trying to sweep under the rug. It was clear, not only did I have to forever change my ways but I had to face this if I wanted full Peace. It was one of the hardest things in my journey but my Heart was relentless. God reminded me He was by my side and would go before me but I had to listen to what He was speaking in my Heart. I had to do things His way. It was time to change my ways and right what I had done wrong even at the risk of losing everything. I had to own up to my mistakes and make amends. I had to make things right to the best of my ability. I had to confess to those I hurt. I had to face my giants. God gave me the strength to do it and when I didn’t know if I had the strength He said, “Let those without sin throw the first stone.” When God is for you, who can be against you? He became my strength and was that rock in my hand that I threw to take down the giant. It wasn’t easy but I did it and it freed me of what was holding me in bondage for too long.
I knew to keep this Peace He had now given me that I could not go back into the life I had left. And if I wandered off path, He would make me go thru these same steps again (just like any other loving Father would do). The thought of having to go thru those steps again (facing God and others with what I did wrong) gave me the strength to walk the straight path forever. God was holding me accountable and that is what that Heart conviction is all about. He taught me through this not only just how deep His Love is even when we completely mess up but that the only way for me to have Peace was to walk in His ways. I had to Live it. I truly had to Live what I believed and it changed my Life forever.
I want to encourage you to face your giants. Let God be the rock in your hand and watch the Giants fall.
Many Blessings to you, with MUCH Love!!! :)
Ammie
Love one another …
A good friend of mine came over this week for tea. She began to share a story with me. She said, “I want to tell you about my friend’s vacation. She and her husband took a bike trip down the Natchez Trace (a 444 mile long route that traces through Mississippi, Alabama and Tennessee). It was really hot that day so what water they did have they went through really fast. My friend was panicking a bit so they went off path to try and find some water. They went into a small town where a man was watering his yard. They were so thankful to see him so they could get some water and get back on their bike trip. They approached him and asked him if they could have some water. He looked at them and asked, “What religion are you?” I said surprised, “He did?” She said, “Yes, he did and my friend’s husband who is a very personable guy smiled and jokingly said, ‘I hope you don’t hold it against us but we’re Catholic’. The guy looked at him and said, ‘at least you’re Christian’ and then gave them the water.” She said, “I couldn’t help but think what the wrong answer would have been and thinking would he have really denied someone water?”
God comes disguised in many ways … many, many ways. Can you see into the Heart of each person or are you seeing the outside and denying someone water? Every living creature requires water to live. Please see others through the eyes of your Heart and not the eyes of your head because the Heart will see what God sees and He Loves all children especially those who go off path looking for water to help them keep going on their journey. Leave the judging to God for it is His to judge not us. Imagine turning God away when He came to you for water. What you have done to the least, you have done to God. Love one another.
Many Blessings to you, with MUCH Love!!! :)
Ammie
Purpose …
If you keep trying to put your hands to something over and over again but are at a point of complete frustration with no Will left inside your heart to keep going, then ask yourself these questions:
1. Are you trying to please people or God? If you are trying to please the people around you, more times than not you will fail because you’re trying to hit a moving target. But, when you look up and want to please God then no matter how impossible the situation looks He will place strong Will in your heart so you never give up and are able to achieve what He needs you to achieve.
2. Who are you? What defines you? Many have lost their identity because the Truth of who they are and who they were born to be has been defined by the influence of the world. What I mean is they are doing what they are doing because they are trying to live up to an image for someone else, they are in a career that was chosen based on what salary the degree would earn, or they are a product of their environment (primarily family influence) that has told them who they are or who they should be. The current society is quick to look to the world for answers of who they are so the world then molds them into that image. It’s why they feel empty inside and walk around like zombies (dead inside with no Life). However, if you ask God “what is my purpose?” He will then mold us into His image step by step and restore our true identity. When you walk in your purpose, you have Life inside that no one can rob from you. What is your purpose?
Your title in the world doesn’t define you, your purpose does … find your purpose.
Many Blessings to you, with MUCH Love!!! :)
Ammie